I know Im stronger than before

Now I caught you!!

I have a crush on my neighbor since I was in highschool. I think he's a year older than me. He always looks at me. And I always looks at him. Its like a stealing glances exchanged everyday. Until his family transferred to their province. And he decided to go to college there in his province too. I still remembered when his father joked around that his son (my crush) likes me. And because I'm very shy that time, I just didn't take it personally. Until after a few years he went back again to live near our house but this time its a different story. He already have a girlfriend. When I heard about it I just ignored him and go on with my life. Worked and be happy with my boyfriend. But I know deep in my heart he's still my crush. And whenever we see each other or bump with each other on street, I just ignore him because we have this awkward feeling or let my say I still have a crush on him that's why I'm very shy. And they transferred again in another place.

And this year they just transferred back again near our house but this time he married his girlfriend. But I still couldn't understand him because he still always looking at me and I even caught him looking at me and with a day dreaming face. To think that he has his love of his life. He should be loyal with her. Sometimes when he saw me outside our house, he also goes outside their house to go walk near me. And I always observed that whenever he is with his wife I dont see them laughing or fooling around with each other. I also haven't seen his wife smiling when she is with him. Its just plain normal. And whenever the two are together, he always go out of their house and leave his wife inside their house. Or whenever the two are together its either he is outside their house and his wife is inside the house or his wife is outside the house and he is inside the house. It's weird. right? I know I shouldn't be confused because the fact that he married his wife means he really loves her with all his life. And it means he wants to be with her until they grow old.

Honestly, I'm hurt and jealous sometimes. I just wish I can forget about him so I wont be bothered anymore whenever he's around. But I just don't know where to start. Help me..

Im an Instagrammer

I have been busy uploading many pictures on my Instagram. Im just happy to have a good picture editor and effects. Please follow me on my Instagram. My username is Msie29

My sweet mallowz...what?

Having a boyfriend which is sometimes mysterious and inexpressive of his emotions is very hurting and difficult. I'm having a hard time absorbing his gestures and emotions without him telling me he loves me. He's been my boyfriend for 9yrs already. He's my first boyfriend and I'm his first girlfriend too.

He is a Sagittarius man. He loves freedom. He doesn't want me to be clingy. But what I like about him is his loyalty and thoughtfulness. He is very caring too. I really want to marry him..

Today I went at his house and I was surprised because he hugged me tight and kissed me many times. I know its very natural for couples to kiss and hug but he don't really do this all the time. I started to think that he missed me so much to the point that he hugged me tight that I couldn't breath. And he also looked at me like I was away for how many years... Just staring at me without speaking. Its like our eyes speaks.. I'm very thankful for having him in my life.. I'm still praying that in God's time I can grow old with him.

My birth month..yikes

August is actually my birth month. I was born in August 29... and I'm going 30y/o...Damn it...haha
I know Michael Jackson's birthday is August 29 too... I just hope to receive presents like when I was still young. I'm at the age of settling down..Having kids And having a wonderful of my own. But reality bites. Im just thankful to be in this generation where even famous Hollywood stars who are in their early 30's to early 40's and still doesnt want to settle down. Just enjoying life as it is. And just being happy with their self.

Tired..

I have been very tired working with lots of pending and deadlines to meet. I felt like my eyes are very heavy.. Sleeping late and waking up early. With just a 5 hour sleep. But I motivated myself to go to work earlier than usual with an hour allowance. These vitamins are my savior..

Have a break..

Have a break..Have a KitKat....

Having been busy with lots of overtime...Going home late..I really deserve this kind of Chocolate. It was given to me by my boss. She bought it from Japan.